My Time

An angel came softly,
“Your time is coming”

Scared she knew,
“I am not ready!”

Angel questioned quietly,
“What were you waiting for?”

She thought loudly,
“I didn’t think it would be this soon.”

Interested Angel asked,
“What do you think Life is? What of destiny?”

Confused she pleaded,
“Please, I need more time”

In silence and serenity Angle spoke,
“Why shall I grant it to you? Deep inside you knew the rules. No one controls fate.”

She knew, she finally understood,
“What have I done?”

Angel sat serene, pondering her troubles,
“I mean you no sadness, only peace. Most do as you have done, they wait. For what, I know not.”
“Your time is close at hand. I grant you this one moment. For it is sad, you all hold so much”

Her relief passed through into worry and grief.
“One moment? I need more time, what is a moment?”

Bewildered Angel spoke,
“You have had this gift, and yet, still you ask more. You have had this Life, and still you need more. Always more, that is why you choose to remain? Yearn for more time? What more could you want?”

Unable to respond, she sat. Then sadly she answered.
“I just want more time. Just more time.”

Angel replied,
“Time? That my friend is subjective. Now take this moment and face this moment as if you are free. Live this moment for you. For this moment will pass. It will leave you, as will I. Only when I leave, I take with me your desire for time. I will show you your desire is nothing greater than a veil, a mirage. I will not fill the void, I will let it be. So focus on Life and leave times distraction behind.”

 

 

Ecclesiastes

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Where are you

 

Are you here?

I see you not

I waited for this time

A time I never forgot

I have always lived in the past

Learned to give in to moments that shall not last

 

I have learned

I have been told not to question

But I yearn

Be it truth or be it lesson

 

A truth unspoken

A knowledge misunderstood

A burning question

I need to be heard

 

Where are you?

Why am I in this time?

Why am I in this Life?

 

Where are you?

Why have you left me here?

away from my time of old

 

If I don’t see you

How can one be certain?

How can I put all of my faith in my beliefs?

How can one trust in fantasy?

In a reality not my own

 

So I ask this one question

A question known

I have the answer

Yet I ask this one question

In hope of a sign

Where are you?

So Far

Watching

Waiting

Gazing silently at the horizon… listening to my heart

All my thoughts escaped

At peace

 

All my thoughts escaped

But only for a moment

 

For they shall return

They shall come flooding into my mind

Harkening to my soul

Bombarding me with feelings

Regret, longing, memories, failures… want

 

I see it 

Where I envision myself

 

I feel it

My Soul waits in confusion

Two lives 

Two desires

One pure 

One tainted

My soul waits in contemplation

 

It doesn’t know what to feel

So much has simply passed

time

dreams

thoughts

knowledge simply slipping though the mind

landing on the wings of an angel

she waits

arms reaching to entrust the moments lost

“your answers”

she waits

 

I get tired of looking

The horizon so far away

Of all my wants

Of all my searching

I want to be complete

I want to be one 

Mind and Soul

Letting the ego go

 

Yet it is so far

One must travel the endless journey

To meet the horizon

This journey

Is life

And life

As the horizon

is infinite

Let us live

Journey to the end of the world

It may be far

So far

It may be

Let it be

Receive me

Into the arms of abyss
Receive me

Into the fields of light
Receive me

Into your fortress of clouds
Receive me

When dawn crashes upon waters
And shadows bring forth ice

When storm carries winter
And the release is a ray of night

When the thunder shatters
And lightning embraces

When silence is scarce
And noise is null

When all is sacred
And all is inside

Receive me
Release me

Masks

 

Is your life yours?
Do you live for you?

Are you a prisoner to life?
Or do you lead your own?

We live day to day and hide.
Behind a veil we hide

Afraid to reveal our beauty

Afraid to remove the mask.

Are you in control?
Can you let it go?

We forget to look closely.
What we do not see
Owns us.

What we do not see
Controls us.

Deep down inside
The place where we hide
Our soul stirs
It screams
It pleads

“Remove the mask!”

If you hide in society
If you live in shame for goodness
Your soul is in shame
Your soul screams in vain.

All that renders lost feelings
All that gives forth hope
Begins to fade away.
We are not in control
We need our souls.

Enough.

There is no turning back time
There is only here and now
There is only life
There is only one.

Live today
Not yesterday
Nor tomorrow

Masks tie to your soul
Masks weigh on our hearts
Masks infringe on our minds
Masks get us lost
They hide our souls

Enough!

Time to reclaim
Time to release our souls
Our spirits whole
Show yourself and Smile
Live and be who you were meant to be!

My Angel

My Angel
Are you there when I sigh?

Do you feel it when I cry?

Do you feel it when I die?

My Angel

Are you lonely for me?
Do I harken a cry too painful for thee

Am I selfish

For questioning and neglecting you

Are you happy?

Am I?

 

My Angel

Do I make you smile?

Do I make you laugh?

Do you feel my heart?

Are you near my path?

I wish to be…

I wish to do…

I wish you near

For eternity…

 

My Angel
Can you feel it?

The life which you guide.

Can you hear it?

My soul filled with pride.

 

My Angel
Is He great? 

As great as you?
Can you relate?

Perhaps a fate for you…

 

My Angel
I wish to see 

As the blind enlightened

I wish to hear

As the deaf awakened

I wish to speak

With the voice forever silent

I wish to touch

With the purity of the mind

 

My Angel
Call me home
Together, never alone

I pray to Him
Do you hear me?
My Angel

I feel for Him
Do you feel me?
My Angel

I cry for Him
Are you there?
My Angel

 

I speak to him

Perhaps you, my angel