Category Archives: Spirituality
Searching
I am wandering down the halls of my mind… There are doors I keep wanting to open. The ghosts of experiences that are crying for my attention. I recall them, then I slam them shut. I would rather run, than face them, even one. I built the walls, strong. Never once letting them falter, never once letting them down.
The people.
The places.
The thoughts.
The spaces.
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They made me… yet I made myself…
They shaped me… yet I overcame myself
Through loss and gain, my thoughts made me sane.
I played the game… and ever did I change.
First and above all Dad.
L and J, was it me or was it them?
The ground where it burned
The home which was always cold.
I didn’t belong.
I still don’t.
Yet now I’m home, and the ghosts are crying for my attention.
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I listen as I write, waiting for what I am trying to say. Yet the thoughts remain the same.
I know what I overcame, yet that which made me is slowly driving me insane…
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I know the answer, yet I don’t want to hear…
It is in there, trying to form itself clear…
Is it me?
Please answer my fears…
it is, but its ok
Boundaries
In the beginning I sink ,
Slow…
yet as fast as sound and the mind.
Deep down into an abyss,
Hidden…
Buried with time.
A feeling…
Thoughts form before my wandering eyes.
Yet they are closed. They know…
Incomplete…
Moments elude …
They grace what knowledge knows.
As if pieces are missing from my soul
Taken…
Hidden…
in plain sight
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Panicking I feel holes in my heart.
Throbbing and alive.
My soul.
I know.
I must go to fill these holes.
Dull the subtle pain
Yet this moment finds me insane
*
All I ever needed
I misplaced along the way
As I backtrack
I miss the path
Further and further I go
I can not find my heart
I can not find my soul
I scream
My screams are muted
Muted by a place that is beyond sound
Movement in the distance I see
I run
My legs moving as fast as permitted
So fast
In this place there are no rules
I can fly
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In the distance I see over the hills
Pieces of my soul are there
The holes from my heart
But the darkness produces shadows
I want to see clear figures in the opaque sky
I want to dance with the shadows of the moon
I want to put in words what I see
Simultaneous and Impossible
I need to complete my soul
I need to finish this dream
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Every moment of this place collapses
My dream retracts
Back and forward
It is understood
somewhere
just not here
In a world where there are no boundaries
In a moment that spans a lifetime
I understand
My dream culminates with a realization
Not taken
Simply Free
In this place with no boundaries
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Just in time for the journey back to my slumbering body
My soul weary
Yet happy
Solace found for my mind
With my souls completion
My heart and soul alight
With Love
With Knowledge
But was it real?
As I dreamed it?
Or perhaps I was the dream
Of chaos
In this place with no boundaries
it reaches me
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sometimes I wonder what it is I really am thinking.
sometimes I wonder what it is I really am feeling.
sometimes it just makes no sense. it makes me tired.
~enreal
Time speaks
What say the time… when love becomes divine
When the spirit breaks… leaving behind the wake
The ripples upon water
The shallow darkness falters
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What say the time… when knowledge leaves the mind
When the body trembles… chasing the passages of death
The passages of birth
The breeze escapes the deepest depth
The echos carried upon the softest of breath
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What say the time… when the heart slows the spirit
When the soul loosens… the hold is free
It aches in remembering… it beats for life
It awakens… it forgets
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What say the time… upon the sacred hour
When the mind and body see
When love and knowledge are mirrored
When the Heart and soul are free
The veil is lifted
The mirror reflects
The knowing that has been there
The knowledge held with care
The mind, the heart, the spirit, the soul… all hold pieces… perhaps they shall see
Upon the sacred hour
Forever shall they be free
For now Time is silent
Listen to be heard
A reason
Fear not the night, nor the darkness which heralds false unease. The prospect of our senses blinded by the lack of light… the lack of sun… the lack of awareness as to what we shall become. Freedom awakens to the heavens as we drift to where our souls meet… ready for the mind to release and the soul to take flight… the wind remains calm, for the rays dance in ethereal light…
On the wings of my soul
In the shadows of my plight
On the borders of my mind
As my spirit brings forth sightAs vivid as our dreams
As immortal as our souls
As our endless years unfold
The truth we always holdOn the cusp of a dawn
Our sorrows were reborn
Shadows of the eclipsed sun
Casting hopeThough they sought none
Now the shadow’s seeking night
Night as darkness
Dawn as sorrow
Be it as a light in the morrow
Be it happiness in the perceived abyss
Be it simply
Life is not always as it is
So I say, once more… fear not that which can be misunderstood. Fear not darkness simply because it is dark. Dismiss not pain simply because it hurts. Deny not sorrow for the well may once be full… there is always season… there is always a reason
And reason is as Life
Air of being
Do you believe
In what seems to be
The love felt for your souls
The pain felt for yours lost
How tomorrow can come after today
How a day can span forever
A moment may exist ever or never
Do you believe
In what seems to be
Your souls completion left aside
Your souls reason passed on by
Your souls adrift
You lost your mind
Your place is missed
Perhaps left behind
Do you believe
In what seems to be
To lose a piece of your soul
Time often takes its toll
Its seems unfair that all must wait
For the time we contemplate
If we were born too late
If we have missed the date
Why do we have to wait
For our destined fate
To reveal the truth
To our soul
To see the meaning
In our mind
To believe in what seems to be
For ever
Or perhaps
just this time
The Veil
Come in through the veil
Through the curtain of despair
Open the window to the world
Breathe the beauty in the air
Stop hiding behind a mirror
Show yourself to me
Cowardice does not suffice
You are me and I am Life
I confront thee
For you shadow me
I oppose thee
For you are less than me
Of whom do I speak?
Of the one whom makes us weak
Filling our minds with fallacy
Diluting our hopes and fantasies
The Villain
Is here
Hiding behind
Waiting for the moment
Until you find…
He is you
And you are me
Lest for you and I
Can open our minds
See our hopes
And remember our dreams
Hiding is our soul
Our mind was left to know
That only now does it show
That only now will it grow
For we killed the doubt
Lifted the veil and broke it out
Freed the soul
Left our spirit whole
The veil is lifted
We are gifted
Gift is knowledge
Knowledge is power
Power is free
Freedom is key…
Journals Of Enreal 