In silence she waits. calmly she states,
“I am dying…”
“I do not know how long I have left.”
Her smile is late, my reply I contemplate.
Confused and in shame, I can not say her name.
Her eyes are clear, they show no fear.
They search my mind, in distance and time.
She bows her head and whispers softly with sadness,
“I speak not of death… I only seek light. I speak not of now, I only seek night”
Riddled with muddled emotions my words seemingly attack,
“Speak clear and right! Explain to me your sight!”
In reply, as a silent sigh… She falls to her knees and begins to cry,
“I see a life I have not lived”
“I see a world that does not give”
“I dream of gardens and beauty beyond”
“I dream of a love that may never be found”
“I have waited so long, I have been patient and strong”
“Finally I break, these walls I forsake”
Then silence
I heard her. Inside.
She is right,
As clear as the moon is tonight.
I can not say her name
She is I and I the same
I understand her pain
I am in a sense her very shame
She is not dying a different death
She is not breathing a different breath
She is only helpless to change
that which remains forever the same
She knows I know.
With this she lifts her head, she begins to rise… focus arrives upon her eyes.
“you know very little of forever.”,
she smiles as she begins to fade.
another victory
Journals Of Enreal 
divine…….
name has no meaning and meaning has no name..
eternity is dancing on eternity like football
etennal space outside and eternal space inside…
in between leather…..or body….
” a cosmic dream work productions ”
Birth is like start of the film,
death is like end of the film,
life is to watch the film to
know your role and my part.
Review:- film is neither real nor false,
know birth and death is for body….
you are beyond …..both…..eternal..
enjoy the film………….
I try to enjoy the film… perhaps one day I will. thanks for the previews… they always keep me hanging on …
Full of emotions and feelings…….
It is really a master piece
Thank you Soul stirrer… very much
Wow! you have captured the inner conversation so beautifully. You speak for me the words that refuse to leave me.
I wish they accompany you though eternity… feel them always my friend, as I feel your energy. Blessings and light
So moving!! OMGOD! Thank you for sharing your beautiful message, I thought I was reading my life!! I miss my son, so much, I am dying inside. David was 19 years young, I cant wait to be reunited with him forever in Eternity!!
One day you shall Marlene… for now just the remember… you see your son in the everyday around you… when the time comes to meet again, you shall… stay strong and remember there are no coincidences in Life… all which you see and hear and read serves you well
Thank you so much, I appreciate your remarkable journal of “Her Name.” I shared it with family and friends. It’s all me, as I was reading “Her Name” I was thinking how I suffer a death sentence. My only 19 year old son left this world Thursday, November 6, 2008, David is will always be my light, strength, sunshine, balance in life, but when he departed I left with him. I am slowly dying inside the pain is too much to bare. All my days & nights are so empty without David in my life. I think of David more then I ever have, when our loved ones are with us we take it for grant it, and think of them, but not as often as we do when they have departed from our side. I am dying to reunite with him in the eternal light.
God bless you
Marlene… be strong and have faith in this life. Blessings to you
i enjoy reading your blog. This post made my morning a lil bit shiny. I like the way you express your fellings!
Lady Bug! Thanks for the sweet comment. See you soon