Category Archives: Thoughts

Captivate

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You captivate me with your voice

Full of silence

Within a chaotic sound

You captivate me with your eyes

Full of knowledge

Beneath a wise disguise

You captivate me with your touch

A veiled hand

Above a shimmering mirage

You captivate me

As a flame dances within the palm of your hand

As a river flows within the depths of your soul

As a whisper sings on the wings of the wind

As the thought travels amongst the spirits flight

As the prayers ascend to the angels at night

You captivate me

I shall thank you for eternity

Time and Miracles

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“The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once.”
~Albert Einstein





Living


Dying


Laughing


Crying


The first sunrise


The last sunset


The first love


The last break


The first time you were awed


the last time you were disappointed


The first time you cried


The last time you laughed


The first life you missed


the last life you gave


Can you imagine all this at once?








“There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle.”






~Albert Einstein

Somewhere

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Does it give you hope to know your dreams are real, your hopes alive. Your imagination is actually speaking to you in images that exist slightly beyond your grasp.

Does it make you wish bigger, see clearer? Or does it break your heart to know that somewhere, anywhere other than here… at this exact moment you are happy.

Alive in your dreams, in your hopes… your imagination is reality… somewhere, other than here

Gone

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Would they realize I was gone? Vanishing, never to be heard from again.

Would they take my  leave as an invitation to search, to try to figure out… what happened?

Would they feel my absence? More than physical, more than emotional? Or lack there of…

Would they take my leave as prompted? Something led cause to this, yet they know not what…

Reassure them that I have left so many times, this is but the first time they noticed.

The countless hours spent within

My thoughts

An untold number of wishes

A myriad of dreams

All passed on, by the ones who now take notice

I will return. Time moves strange where we are. The absence noticed by the others, is simply a flicker of recognition

This makes me smile, for they know not where we are.

The others see and mirror the other facets of where we are.

The many sides of the cut gem

Our mind…

Would they realize I was gone? Only if they realized they were too.

Invisible

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I can not describe in words what I feel, but I will try. It is a sad victory I win. An engrossing battle that wages against sense. A constant struggle that time and time again stares me in the face and weakly smiles in defeat… and in bittersweet triumph.

What is this I feel? I can not explain, yet once again I try reason, I try faith. I try to understand what is happening…

I watch life as it passes. Living behind who I am and who I should be. Living with who I know and who I could be. Waiting and silently forgetting the voice which has spoken beautiful dreams to my soul. Choosing not to listen to the dreams for the fear of losing is far worse than truly accepting what could be, even if only in a dream.

What a beautiful dream.

So for now I can not describe in words what I feel, so I leave it invisible to my eyes, while ringing vibrations to my soul. My soul knows these invisible dreams, thoughts and fears… and although I can not explain, I have no need to explain…

The only need is to say, I am sorry

To begin with…

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Enreal, let me start by asking you a question; (no need to answer if you don’t want to). What made you decide to start your blog?

I will be honest. It was two weeks after my father died. I was lost, confused, bursting with pain and had nowhere to turn. My family looked to me as the rock… it was only a matter of time before I crumbled. I needed an escape. I needed to detach from my life.

This is my beautiful detachment… this is my salvation… this is my escape… this is where I can express my dreams, my desires, my visions… this is my minds home, my hearts retreat, my souls property… this is who I could be without limitations…

If the people I have met along my virtual journey in my journals would see who I was in the real world, they would be surprised. I suppose this is true for most… we share the best of ourselves here, that is why it is such a beautiful instrument… I know I have learned so much from the people I have met here and am blessed they have journeyed along side with me…

AS for the surprise… it is not that I am not a bad person or different from the words I write. I am simply busy.I work too hard and yearn for more… so much more… and I am too afraid to live… I live for my limitations…

So J… this is why I blog, this is why I write here… in some way I gain my freedom through my readers. Thank you all for journeying with me

For Now

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The days begin to fold into one. Months, weeks, days, hours… or perhaps simply minutes. I can’t tell anymore. Staring at the second hand wondering, why I can’t cry. Why I can’t feel. Why I can’t see…

Then I turn away. I walk away, once more… tired… this too shall pass…

Sighing a heavy breath, one which never really alleviates anything, a breath which is part of my soul, never parting, never detaching from my chest, from my heart… it is a heavy breath…

Then I try once more to breathe, to feel, to see, to cry… I still can’t… for now.

This too shall pass