My words

Why must these words continue to come? I read them, write them, feel them… yet I am far from them.

Why must then they torment me? For so long they gave me shelter, for so long they gave me light. Why then do I forsake them as my plight?

I feel them shudder as they course through my veins, pulsing with the crimson tides that remain blue beneath the surface.

I taste them as they form on my tongue. some bitter, some sweet, some salty with the tears I can not shed, for they too have forsaken me.

I hear them crying from within, laughing from the heavens, whispering from the winds…

I see them as they merge with images, form as a painting of colors only to be melted away from the ridicule I cast myself…

I know them as I know myself… more so… I know them for their truths and they show me mine… I can not deny my words, yet they deny me… why must then do they continue to come?

I know. I am a failure to my dreams.

I know. I am a failure to my visions, to my words.

I know.  I am a failure to myself

My words, they hold so many dreams, so many wishes, so many lives, why then can they not hold mine. It pains me to leave them. I know I can not. I only wish them hear me, once.

Understand me, as I understand you. Make light your dreams, your visions, your way. Help me form my way, as I form yours.

Listen

Can you hear me
I call to you
I am not near you
I am with you

In patience
In solitude
I am always here
Waiting for you to hear

What I would give
To be more than a voice
What I would give
To be heard
To be given the choice

As I watch you from a distant place
I look into your eyes
I look into your space

with all of this searching

you see not my face

We sit in silence
You never realize I am here
As I wait for you to see
I wait for you to hear

You and I

Shall be together

you and I

Always

forever

in silence

My dreams

I often speak to you as if you are my future, my life, my hopes, my truths… my escape… my reality.

Yet as of late, the nights have turned restless, fever rushes and sweat drowns my peace

As of late, the visions which fall bring not rest

As of late, the nights which gather make my eyes heavy with longing of nights which have passed

As of late, I sit in the corner and wait for dawn. Awake. Alone.


I have spoken to you so often, yet tonight I address you, directly, and ask of you to return to me.

Do not begrudge me my mistakes, for I may have taken for granted, but I have never forsaken my peace.

Please return to me

my future, my life, my hopes, my truths… my escape… my reality…

my dreams

I remember nights when I would smile and await the next adventure,

the reality of  life faded and  accompanied the shadows to rest.

The replaced image was one of silence and experience

This new uncertainty became truth… I remember the nights.

I remember the mornings when I would smile and try to capture every detail,

relive the fantasy, find that which I believed in, feel the freedom of all I owned… be that which knows no bounds… almost discovering the reflection in the mirror is all but a mirage… it is the real you

the fragrances of life, the tastes of air, the sights and sounds… all aware… all in there… it is the truth… I remember the mornings when my mind would comfort my soul

one day,

one day

your dreams shall

be real,

for all which is,

is all

In dreams

Fires of infinity

If only to dance with the fires of infinity

If only to feel the static of electricity

If only to shine in colors vivid

To touch the fire that is frozen

Time within hours

Waves which are broken

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If only to move with the freedom of the universe

If only to travel along their dark shimmering paths

If only to fly with their solitary satellites

then to rest with the silence of the stars

Watch the world shine

The world is welcoming and is ours

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If only to reach for it

claim it

breathe it

live it

If only the fire was ours

the infinite flames

our invisible scars

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See Me

The truth is clear

The knowledge is here

Buried within your Soul

Shunned by your Mind

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Could it be this simple

The answer to it all

Could it be the reason

The meaning of your Fall

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Where are those wings

The ones which gave you flight

The ones which protected you

The ones which shone so bright

*

Where is the fire

The one which burned so pure

The flames of innocence

The intensity of life

*

I stand before you

You bow before me

I reach for you

You fall at my feet

*

I take your hand

I lift your face

I try to calm you

I try to take your disgrace

*

Your eyes are veiled

As you look within yourself

Your eyes show nothing

Only believing the truth which has failed

*

Do you see  the truth?

The wisdom which is here.

Open your heart and mind

Remove the illusions from which you hide

*

Be it the truth that captures

Be it the lie that sets you free

Be it that I

I am the you

The you that you see

Captivate

You captivate me with your voice

Full of silence

Within a chaotic sound

You captivate me with your eyes

Full of knowledge

Beneath a wise disguise

You captivate me with your touch

A veiled hand

Above a shimmering mirage

You captivate me

As a flame dances within the palm of your hand

As a river flows within the depths of your soul

As a whisper sings on the wings of the wind

As the thought travels amongst the spirits flight

As the prayers ascend to the angels at night

You captivate me

I shall thank you for eternity

There

I know you are there

The silence is blinding

Burning with hope

Blue with love

I know you can hear

The echo rings violence

I watched you in silence

I heard you breathe

I know you can see

The reflective embers

Tears form hard as crystals

Descending slow from shadowed eyes

I know you can feel

Slowly ascending up the spine

The tired and broken

Sheltered in your cells divide

I know all this

I know all there is

I know you are there

In the shadow of the mind

Awake

Observing

For eternity is in time