A picture

It is amazing what a picture can hold.

It has been 7 months and 13 days since I lost my father. It feels like yesterday. I think about him everyday and I pray to God for a sign from him…In the mean while I have my memories and a few photographs.

There is this one picture that I see everyday.

It hangs in my “inspiration room”, a place I decorated with beautiful books, pictures, cards with special sayings and anything that I treasure. This picture, it was taken about three years ago. He is sitting in the passenger seat of my car, he looks content. He is gazing towards me but the camera catches his gaze to the left.

This picture is a mystery, every time I look at it I catch a different expression. Sometimes there is so much happiness behind those eyes, sometimes sadness, sometimes joy and sometimes pain. I ask to myself why couldn’t I have just caught him looking at me? Looking into the camera, so as I to see him looking into my eyes. Just one more look into his.

You stare at something for so long, each time seeing something new. A picture can hold a thousand words, but it holds a thousand expressions as well. I wonder if I reflect myself into the picture or maybe it is the magnitude of a persons reflection. Either way it is still just a picture and I am still waiting for my sign.

7 responses to “A picture

  1. Enreal,
    I know wherever your Father is now, he’s watching over you.Maybe physically he’s gone, but try to listen to your heartbeat your Father memories and love will always be alive…. I know what you feel, 6 months ago my Grandamother died.It was unexpected, were not prepared.Until now the we still feel the pain of longing her.. But I beleive they are in the better place now with God…..

  2. (((( Enreal )))) I’m asking the angels to provide you with the sign that you seek. something that will speak to your heart directly, and bring you comfort.

    About the picture…my first thought was – your father’s eyes are mirroring back to you, as do the eyes of all those that we are in love relationships with. I’m sure your eyes mirrored to him, as well.


  3. I’m sorry for your loss. I can relate, am going through something similar.

    This is one of my favorite quotes, stolen from the movie The Doors:

    “Death does not part, only lack of love.”


  4. Grace…You are amazing, I thank you for your thoughts and for your prayers.

    Harmonie…I will pray for you during these hard times, it is not easy no matter what the circumstances. The quote…I can understand, thank you for your thoughts.

  5. It isn’t just a picture enreal. It is a piece of time that only you hold that was shared with your dad. I love pictures..and I am so sorry for your loss. I truly know what you are going through.

    I know that yearning you have. The yearning to have a sign brought to you that he is near. I know that strong want you have in wanting to know your dad is witnessing your life…trust me, he is there! You just might be looking to hard…try looking into the mirror when the want becomes numbing. You’ll find him there for sure.

    I will pray that peace comes to you and strength to face the days without your dad come your way.


  6. JO… with a tear in my eye and an awakening in my mind, I shall say thank you for your beautiful words. I shall follow your thoughts. Thank you for taking time here. It means more than you know

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