Good Bye

Why do we forget the living
Yet remember the dead

Why is it always too late
To say the right things

Why do we take life for granted
We never appreciate what we see

When the night came
I had the chance

When the morning broke
I screamed in pain
I screamed in vain

I never said goodbye
I wish I had

If I close my eyes
I can still see you

If I close my mind
I can still hear you

It never remains the same
Life and her cruel heart

It is not always what it seems
Then forever falls short

Leaving behind time
Time to hurt for the past

Lost

Where has it gone
Words ring through my ears
Forms shadow on my tears

When did it part
Was it for choice mind
Or the heart

As the notion sets
The perception in focus
Distance is ageless
Time is unbiased

For now it is passed
Wait for the last
For now unremembered
What is lost
I surrendered

Why You

Such passion
Your eyes held true
Such fire
Your words revealed you

Such feeling
Your voice trembled
Such love
My heart was humbled

With such desire you waited

With such wonder I related

I wanted to believe
I wanted to see

Tragedy called
Love failed
Words tore
Hope paled

You
Who asked of me
You
Who spoke of me
You
Who left me
You
Who broke me
You
Who forsook me

Why You?

A picture

It is amazing what a picture can hold.

It has been 7 months and 13 days since I lost my father. It feels like yesterday. I think about him everyday and I pray to God for a sign from him…In the mean while I have my memories and a few photographs.

There is this one picture that I see everyday.

It hangs in my “inspiration room”, a place I decorated with beautiful books, pictures, cards with special sayings and anything that I treasure. This picture, it was taken about three years ago. He is sitting in the passenger seat of my car, he looks content. He is gazing towards me but the camera catches his gaze to the left.

This picture is a mystery, every time I look at it I catch a different expression. Sometimes there is so much happiness behind those eyes, sometimes sadness, sometimes joy and sometimes pain. I ask to myself why couldn’t I have just caught him looking at me? Looking into the camera, so as I to see him looking into my eyes. Just one more look into his.

You stare at something for so long, each time seeing something new. A picture can hold a thousand words, but it holds a thousand expressions as well. I wonder if I reflect myself into the picture or maybe it is the magnitude of a persons reflection. Either way it is still just a picture and I am still waiting for my sign.

Love letter from a dreamer

We live day to day in a mirage. I feel compelled to write. I do not even know you. Maybe from a glance passing you once, or even from my dreams I felt as if a connection was made. I need to close this door in my life. I need to be free from something that never was. Once there was someone who believed in fate… that we somehow can connect without words and without reason, and just be. This sounds so strange, and even to make myself happy, I am writing this to you, a complete stranger. I write this letter if only to let something go and capture some sort of freedom.

Seems like yesterday I heard you in the wind.
Seems like today the wind answered my prayers.

Let it pass.

I am in love with the thought of love.
The concept that there is a power stronger than individuality, but can not contain the truth.

Love songs, letters, movies…imagining a life with love. Soul mates, conceptual happiness.
I am in love with the thought of love.

Be still Be free

When your voice is silenced
Your light extinguished
When you are still
When you are still

Be not scared
Do not cry
In the end
We all die

But die is wrong
Nothing ends
Nothing dies
Perceptions fails
Perceptions lies

But when your voice is silenced
A new light is lit
A new flame
A new name

Awakened is your soul
Alive is your spirit
The circle is complete
The circle will repeat