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There are so many things I can’t explain. So many feelings I can’t register. Questions I can’t fathom. Thoughts I fail to explore.
Is there choice in this matter?
Boundless yet finite are my journeys. Reason leads the expedition now. Faith has taken her sabbatical, leaving the journey up to the mind alone.
Once there was a time when the universe opened her heart to me. When we danced and drank in life to the fullest. We ventured, amazed at the signs which stared upon us in reflection. She and me. Bound. There once was a time…
It seems so long ago.
Then there came the passage above, the one which triumphed above us as one. The one which called to question the feelings, the thoughts, the connection with realization. The one which threatened the heart. During our travels we often face reason and choice…
This was neither, yet it was both.
There came the road. Metaphorical. The road which bore two paths.
Numbly I chose the path apart. Journeyed the world with her in silence, for she was there. My universe. In silence. She knew why I chose the path. It was simpler, yet forged in false altruism.
Truth is hidden…
Often in plain sight.
Yet in this sight, before us we fail to question the journey. The who, what, where and why? Who laid the path, ventured the journey, explored the unexplorable and sought the meaning?
It was Us
Before we see the end, let us journey the paths and live the beginnings. Before we see the end, let us reunite.
On this day
Was it yesterday
I seem to have forgotten
I was alone
I was pensive
In solace
I gazed upon my thoughts
I left my life behind
I travelled my soul to the end of time
I want to take away what I left behind
For Life is fickle and unkind
For now time holds my fate
For now I must live and wait
Was it yesterday
I seem to have forgotten
Tranquility of the mind
My soul is made of time
Upon my parting
I had whispered the truth
Upon my awakening
I shouted an answer
Upon my realization
I sought an interpreter
Blind
Deaf
No one to hear
No one to see…
Was it yesterday
I seem to have forgotten
Upon my birth
I will forget the end
Upon my death
I will remember the beginning
And on this day
I seem to have forgotten
I am alone in peace
I am in solace complete
On this day
I have found my way
Horizons
Watching
Waiting
Gazing silently at the horizon… listening to my heart
All my thoughts escaped
At peace
All my thoughts escaped
But only for a moment
For they shall return
They shall come flooding into my mind
Harkening to my soul
Bombarding me with feelings
Regret, longing, memories, failures… want
I see it
Where I envision myself
I feel it
My Soul waits in confusion
Two lives
Two desires
One pure
One tainted
My soul waits in contemplation
It doesn’t know what to feel
So much has simply passed
time
dreams
thoughts
knowledge simply slipping though the mind
landing on the wings of an angel
My Angel
she waits
arms reaching to entrust the moments lost
“your answers”
she waits
I get tired of looking
The horizon so far away
Of all my wants
Of all my searching
I want to be complete
I want to be one
Mind and Soul
Letting the ego go
Yet it is so far
One must travel the endless journey
To meet the horizon
This journey
Is life
And life
As the horizon
is infinite
Let us live
Journey to the end of the world
It may be far
So far
It may be
Let it be
Silence walks and rings her bell
Silence walks and rings her bell, the ground wet and cold beneath her feet… the air is heavy, it is suspended by rain, the fog lays ignored on this misty twilight by Silence.
Silence walks and rings her bell. The stones lie cold and alone on this twilight. Not a soul in sight but for the birds which rest upon the stones, memorials of those who passed, the birds pass by too.
Silence walks and rings her bell, for those who rest shall hear the ring of love, the sound of remembrance… they shall feel remembered.
Silence walks and rings her bell, she tires and walks the cold wet ground towards the gates. Slowly she turns towards the stones, watching the fog, acknowledging the birds and thanking the twilight. Be it of silence, remembrance, acknowledgment… Be it of presence…
Remember to walk with Silence and remember the day…
June 14, 1948- December 18, 2006
The third birthday I missed…
Something
Another day at work. Another day at Life. Another day that passed with little to no difference from the days which existed before… or was there something?
Was there a moment which existed, which exists now as I am writing these words? Was there a moment of reflection, of questioning, of reason which stands foremost in my mind? Is there something new?
Is it perhaps this thought which reached my mind, spoken from my soul? is it perhaps the feeling of being present. For that is how I felt as I faced my reflection in passing. As I stopped, stared and smiled. First I thought myself tired, but then I saw something. Something which spoke to my heart, from my mind. Placing reason within understanding. Something which I can not properly define… but I know. I know I am not tired anymore… I know that I am actually alright… I wanted to write “for the time being” twice… yet I did not…
I feel the smile once more… I guess it wasn’t the lighting.
I wonder why
I wonder why when we dream, life seems so irrelevant? Why the hours of sleep feel so short… as if time matters little to the worlds we travel in the night.
I wonder why when we breathe, the air flows through our bodies as if there is no reason… simply will… as if the body is animated by its own design.
I wonder why when we feel, I mean deeply connect to raw emotions, there is that physical reality to the minds power…
the breaking of the heart from sorrow and loss
the butterflies in your stomach when you are nervous, or in love
the laughter which flows so heavily when you are happy
the tear which release when the mind knows not what to do with the flows of emotion, be it happiness or sadness…
I wonder why when we think… delve deep into the abyss we call Mind… do these things make sense. The answers and reasons we resolve delicately explain that which is unexplainable to each individual reality…
we think there for we are
All alone, yet connected by the similarities of Life… semblance to Mind… oneness to Soul…
I wonder why I wonder. Yet I am happy that I do… for so many take not the time to care, learn, think… perhaps it is the wondering we find the wonder
Journals Of Enreal 
