Who cares?

I am an opimist that has hit a wall. Something inside me has switched off. The hole in my heart has stretched to my stomach and is enveloping my soul. Not too long ago I suffered a great loss. All my friends and family at my side. Now time has past and just like time so has everything else. Who cares what is left after the fact. Is there a proper mourning period? Are we supposed to feel different after a day, a week, a month, or even a year? Do we ever regain the same state of being?
Who cares…to be truthful, we can only focus on someone else for a short period of time, then it is back to the ordinary.