Start Quoting Yourself

We need to share each other…we look for words of wisdom from the past…we look for words from the wise…look into yourself, start quoting yourself! Share them with me…

“Life and the power it holds for each and everyone of us. We as individuals are all apart of the same world. We as individuals are not as individual as we may seem. Asking questions that need to be asked but are far from being answered” -Enreal

“Know yourself and you will know that there are times that moving forward may not feel the way that you perceive that it should. The more aware you are, the more tuned in you are you will recognize what is normal discomfort and what are intuitive red flags that are there to warn you of a mis-step”- Mark Brown

“What matters is rarely matter.”-Rob Gruber

“Should you be brave enough, strong enough, wise enough to perceive it, there is a beauty and wonder in life beyond the barrier fashioned by the illusion. Embrace it. Revel in it. Liberate yourself though it. Become one with it. Stop judging me . . . stop judging them . . . stop judging you. Forgive everyone and everything. Then, give yourself permission to take my hand and make this passage with me.”- Miss Demure Restraint

A thought is a creation, a manifestation of emotions strong enough to surface, yet subtle enough to remain in thought…Long forgotten or briefly remembered…always there, for eternity” -Enreal

“The depth of steps we leave in life is defined by our love one to other” –Tomas

Tidal Wave

You dreamt of this
A force unseen

You dreamt of this
An energy obscured

You dreamt of this
This place, this vision

Forgetting the fear
Retracing the purpose

Before you arrives
As if sent by meaning

This chaos
This confusion

Before you falls
A weight of life

A strength
An answer

Before you fades
As a veiled mirage

This peace
This victory

So then why
This fear
This angst

You conquer
You defeat

A minds tidal wave
Gracious potential

How tommorrow can come

What to believe
Is all as it seems

Is Love for the soul
Is Pain for the mind

How tomorrow can come after today
How a day can last forever
Yet forever here is never

Completion left aside
Achievement passed on by

Tomorrow can come after a day
A day can last forever
Forever now is never

You lose a piece of your soul
Time will take its toll
You must wait
Time for destiny and your fate

For tomorrow will come
Today is not forever
Time will show
Our day is old

A year

Where was I that day?
I drove my sister home from work…It was cold, I had worked all day.
As I pulled into the driveway I saw the lights…
“Should I come inside, you think Dad is awake?”
“He is probably asleep it is midnight”

He was awake, he was waiting for me, Sara had made potato pancakes, he wanted me to have some.
But I left, I didn’t want to go inside. I’ll see him next week, on Thursday, my day off. I did see him sooner than that. It was 4:00 in the morning…the phone rang. My sister on the line…

“Dad died” I died inside…I screamed so loud and sobbed so strong I let part of my soul leave my body…and it still has not returned. As I stood up I was lost…I was lost. As I drove the road carried me, yet I know not how I got there. As I pulled into the drive, a pain gripped me…If only I went inside four hours ago, I would have talked with him one last time. I would have kissed him goodnight, I would have said “I love you”. (As a child growing up he never said he loved me, only the past five years or so he said it although I know he felt it. ) As I walked through the door there were strangers in the house, some from the police department, the medical examiner, the funeral home…

I went into his bedroom, closed the door and sat with him. I looked at his face, was he smiling? Did he see his mother, whom he missed greatly? Did he see his father or brother whom he longed to see? I touched his hand…his cold hand…it was always cold. (the only part of him that was ever cold). I sat for a while. I talked to him, hoping he could hear, I wished and prayed to God for another word, a smile, a glance, anything…nothing came…

As they came and told me he had to go…I was numb…we all lose love, we all lose parents…we all experience grief and suffering…We just need to see what we have in front of us…We need to make time, I wish I had. You see, we are not guaranteed time, if anything we are guaranteed death, and there is no set time or place for it. So for all of you running around…take a minute to look at the ones you love and the ones who love you and make time…

Silviu George Klein…My father, my equal, my heart…
I never told him how much I admired him, how much I respected him, how much I loved him…
I have my beliefs in where he is, I have my convictions on Life.
I am strong in my beliefs…but there is still the one thing that is missing…his voice, his eyes, his laugh, his life…
I do miss him so much…all those things and more…

Father! Father?

Father!
Father?

For where have you roamed to?

Father!
Father?

Did you journey to your heart?
Did you find your peace?

Father!
Father?

Did you go for the far away star?
The one that shined
O does it shine

Did you dive into the abyss?
The abyss of the beautiful sea
The sea of infinite mystery

Father!
Father?

How does the galaxy look?
The majesty of heaven
The heaven of ours

Father!
Father?

What of mythical knowledge?
Knowledge of fate and life
Life as we know

Father?
Father?

Will I see what you saw
Your visions
Visions of Life?

Father!
Father?

For where have you roamed to?

The Man and his Sun by Silviu George Klein

This is the prologue to another of my fathers books. Ironically he speaks of his fathers memory, he took to the loss of his parents with strength and purity, it still killed him slowly each day…

This book is “The Man and his Sun”. Again, there is a bit lost in translation, still beautiful just the same. My mission is finding a bit of time to edit and publish all his books. He has probably 15 books of poetry, prose and fiction literature, an auto biography and countless other treasures. One day…One day…

I dedicate his words to all

The Man and his Sun

– June 2003 –

Prologue

The memory of your father, if it lasts long enough, you might have the privilege of climbing along, back to the Mountain again, even if is just the pretext of short stops to catch your breath and when the alpine vegetation gets shorter you’ll gain the right of seeing the very top, sharp peaks piercing clouds, touching the sky. Rubbing your eyes, distances are at your reach, no matter how far they are, no matter how high.

Early in the morning gives you the independence of running freely, to voice loud and clear your most intimate thoughts, to look around and to see the sheep dogs aligning the flock, reaching the green plateau in perfect formation, then dispersing to chew the grass until a whistle has the reminding power of announcing the time of going back to the shelter. The shepherd doesn’t seem to be present, but the dogs are and they are waiting with alertness for any of their Master’s signal. It always comes sharp and decisive, waking up the whole valley, making wolfs backing up, making the sheep dogs proud of their job in a slow walk advancing to the harbor.

Up there your gain is that you are offered with no reservations the freedom, that unmatchable self inflicted power, until you reach the peak, where you rein the infinity bellow. That alone brings you on a shiny plate the total immunity, fund only there and is your choice of taking advantage of it now or later. This is also a sign that the control is yours, not as a dictator, just an observer of all openings nature offers.

Your father is here again and shows you whatever you’ve already seen but from a totally different angle, to obey to your own will, which should be always stronger than you are and more determined to take action in defending you against the evil side of human impulses.

Your father will follow you wherever you go, sometimes far behind, not to bother. That’s his special way of suggesting you “Hey, do you mind turning left at the edge of the woods. There is the path you are looking for…” Indeed the path is there. Sometimes you turn around feeling a company. You shake your head “it cannot be him” and a large, generous smile invades your face “oh yes is categorically him”.

Just remembering your father takes you to the lake where falcons are circling, where the peak reflects in the clear water telling you about your limited reach, teaching you how to stretch your arms to touch it and how to hide that image inside you to last as long as you need it.

Late at night, when the counting of stars begins, your father leaves, having the work well done for the day.

If it happens you hardly remember his face, all what you see is probably just clouds changing shapes, letting to select a picture you wish to be framed. If my choice is the one to the right, it gives you the chance of choosing the one in the middle. You knew that you’d get this just because we think different. Even if I would have chosen mine, you would still have your second choice. When three portraits are hanging there, your possibilities are unlimited, same with the desire of having all tree compressed inside one single frame, or adding to the number of it, creating a multitude of frames. Lucrative minds find solutions to change, like if we would arrived from a space where time is no object and every encounter with the mystic would engrave an unfamiliar image, we should rely on that picture which couldn’t make the selection, just to confuse the one who is watching.