It’s come down to this… I’m tired of the constant facade. The smiles and handshakes… the pleasantries and false securities… I don’t mind them terribly, but I’m tired of them. I am who I am, and I’m not a bad person. I do what I do and give my all to all. I take care of others when all fail me, and I don’t care… I just want to be left alone. Leave me be.
Why must people judge and watch? I don’t care what others do. I have too many things to worry about. I don’t care what other people say. I have too much to listen to in my own mind…
There have been a lot of changes in my world, some for the better and some for the worse… yet the worst I can say is that I’m tired. I know I should count my blessings and it sickens me how I often I am using “I’ and “me” in this rant… but alas… it is but a rant…
Tomorrow will be today and I shall continue to tire, until I finally give in to my surroundings. Let us hope I keep myself, for I have lost parts of me that I miss terribly.
Until we meet again,
Enreal
Journals Of Enreal 
Is this a sign off? If so, “say it ain’t so!”
Not a sign off… simply a release… it has been so crazy in my world, I needed it. There will be changes coming to my pages though. Thank You
“Yesterday, being clever, I wanted to change the world. Today, being wiser, I work to change myself” – Paraphrasing a traditional quote of unknown origin
“Whether you think that you can, or that you can’t, you are usually right.
Henry Ford
I encourage you to explore the immense power that you and every person hold. We are all choosing the experience we want out of this life. By our attitudes and what we want to get out of an experience..’good’ or ‘bad’. It has taken me a long time to realize this…but truly this world is a heaven and a miracle in itself…so beautiful. Just to contemplate nature and how everything works in complete order..amazing. I’m learning to look at life with joy and love, to make each experience or ‘job’ fun by my attitude only. And as you thinkith..so you are..and you will draw to you all that you put out. Even if you are doing good things for others if your attitude is not good or happy doing it you will not get the goodness back…attitude is everything. The sad part is that none of this will click or it will seem impossible until you are ready. So be happy…or choose happy if that is what you want. We choose our own experience according to what we want to learn or share with the world. Either way you are where you need to be in any given moment. And you are a beautiful expression of this creation. ‘Good’ and ‘bad’ are perceptions..so choose your own adventure. Egoless love is the ideal, yet so hard to learn and practice..the f****** layers to get through..I guess that’s something we’re here to learn.
-my own little perceptions..It’s not my intention to offend.
Much love..
…and again, thank you for sharing these pieces of yourself in this forum. Always beautiful to read and learn others thoughts and perceptions. No one can take things you are not willing to give..(I need to think about and absorb that one myself!)
Thank You Amanda for your amazing thoughts and insights… it is a pleasure to receive such raw and honest wisdom.. Thank you