They come and go
As shadows throughout the day
Disappearing at night
Except for when one shines a light
I am lighting a candle
The day disappeared without notice
But I notice you’re gone
in the constant darkness
I miss shadows
the 14th of june 2011 would have been 63
have four years and a half passed
I remember 59
I remember 26
I am reminded of numbers
though it is words, smells and laughter I miss
life is crazy that way
perhaps it is death I should say
whether you were here or there
you are within my heart everywhere
So I light this candle for you to see
Happy birthday daddy
Why is it always so late?
The hours disappear,
they leave me sitting here
I just want you there there
When I finally arrive
The look of pride shining through your eyes.
The relief when I return the smile.
The knowledge renewed even for a little while.
I want it to be special.
I want it to make sense
I want you to hear me through my dreams and wait
Will you be there in the end?