A shadow remains

I have been searching for your light

The eternity you’ve shined

Once upon my life

Once upon my death

The death I faced when you left


Why is it that now I see

through the eyes

as shadowed and disguised

Why is it now you say

you never went away


I know, yet I care not

for the reasons you give

pain me more the longer I live

You granted me sight once

Now you expect me to stay

humbled and chained

to my realities

which became


into dreams


Think me crazy,

what I thought I knew

now I see anew

Was it but an angels shadow

cast upon the ground


Or simply a vision

A dream

A wish

A whisper

A fading hope

That one day we will live


Remember when the shadows danced upon mirrored waters,

The forest swayed in anticipation of your dreams.

Remember when the stars whispered to your soul,

The oceans tide waved hello.

Remember when the moon would only shine for your heart to feel,

The moon would wane and wax for your joy was real…

Do you remember when? For it was only yesterday in my minds eye. It is not in the distant past I recall the sounds of nature. It was yesterday, we were children… waiting in anticipation for the magic of this life and the next… but alas, the next came to soon… I can not remember the minute when it came. The sounds of an awakening slumber. But it came, seemingly short and important. The importance shifted… the magic faded as a mirage will when water is consumed. What then… what is this water we drink… I wish to purge and remain in that blissful state. Wonder and merriment followed us as children. For I do remember when I would smile… it was before this certain awareness…

Remember the sounds of silence,

The way the wind would echo the laughter of angels.

Remember the light,

The way even the tiniest rainbow would lay captured within the walls of crystals… showing the way to freedom was in our eyes

Remember the rain,

The thunder and lightening would try to frighten us… yet we knew the truth behind the storm Remember the snow, The wind and white… it was never cold

How we live in this world and alone experienced these gifts… these treasures of time… do you remember? I pray we shall never forget…

It’s been so long…

It has been so long since I put my words on these pages… a friend of mine reminded me of who I used to be.

I just wanted to say this… You were meant to write and share it with the world. You don’t have to give away your soul in place of motherhood.  And there is no greater gift that you can give your children than allowing them to see their mother pursue their purpose… You were given such a gift. You have a beautiful spirit and I truly love you. 

 This woke me up a little… I normally do not write of personal things, however I suppose it is appropriate given the circumstances of where I mean to go… I mean to start anew. If not for me… for my son. I used to feel my soul on these pages, she used to sing and laugh and I swear I used to watch her dance… Now she is wandering, waiting for me to call her home, to the missing feeling I have deep down.

Until we meet again, (soon)



Hollowed echos shatter the silence

My heart and body are filled

My soul has cleared 

And now I wait

for fate

to deliberate

my future…


When the time is right I shall return. I miss this place, it was my home. Circumstances change and life grows, one day I shall return, hopefully soon and when I do I shall be different. We shall see. For now, for the few who still come, we shall meet again. Until then, be well my friends.




I slumber and my words fade. I am slowly slipping away. Who I am to who I was are night and day. I miss my place. I hardly remember my space. I am embarrassed and displaced. Simply disgraced… while my voice is erased.

There are those whom slumber and wake to find they have changed. Some remain and others stray. I do not know yet what I may or may not do for I am still changing. Into what… I do not know. I change for others, not myself… let me find strength to go back or do I wish to remain dormant? Remain asleep so I can not see? Time will tell. 


For now I am sorry

the battle

Time retreats

Leaving the war to rage

As it leaves

The battle takes center stage


Scenes morph

Places fade

Mind over matter

In this time
In this place


Silence fades to chaos

The altering of tranquility

The adjustment of time

The realizations of the mind


Mind has learned its lessons

Entering between these forces

Time understands

Its control slowly lessens


Existing as a fragment

The sides face to face

Good or Evil

Mind or Heart

Soul or Body

Which is the latter

Which is the start


For this war is eternal

It shall never ease

This battle never ending

It brings us to our knees


The days we  wage

As our thoughts exist on this page

Is between our mind

The division of our Heart

As we battle our Soul knows not its part

Be this ever the start

of the end


the beginning

of the eternal battle

between the limitless mind and the infinite time







I never remember the intent. The one instant for reason, be it war… prose or poetry.